Bryan
03-20-2004, 05:50 PM
I lie awake at night thinking about all of the things that I want to do and about all of the things that I want to say when I am around you. I can look deep into your soul and know that you are for me. See myself with you for a very long time if not forever. I finally drift away thinking about you and having your name forever inscribed in my eyelids. Sleeping peacefully and dreaming about you, while knowing all along that my dreams may never become reality.
Then when I see you that next time all of the rules are thrown out the window. All my plans are unmade. For the next time I see you, you are in your boyfriend’s arms. Those arms that I can only wish one day I will fill. I feel myself falling deeper and deeper for you and not being able to stop. Not wanting to stop loving you. Your love has become so deep, so powerful. It drives me day by day. Even though we have only known each other for a short while. I feel as if I have known you all my life. Soul mates if you will, and made for each other.
The next day I get to see you again. And this time there is no boyfriend there. Just you and I there on the verge or kissing and stopping before something bad happened. Something that I know would ruin our friendship. I know that you have a boyfriend. I have known all along. But to me… he wasn’t real. So I fell and fell hard. And I enjoyed falling. Falling into your arms, falling into your eyes, falling into your lips, falling into your heart to stay.
A simple kiss, a choice that was made. I know you can’t. Know you won’t. Loving you for not allowing it. This game that we play is the most dangerous game out there. The game of love, and the choices around it. I want to play this game with you. Play this game forever. To love you. As I wish you would love me.
That night I lay on my bed thinking about everything that happened that day. Our conversations full of laughter, jokes, and the ever present sarcasm that fills our day with fun. And again I drift off to sleep with you on my mind. And as I sleep sweet tears fall down my face as I fall to sleep. Tears of confusion, tears of joy, and a tear of love.
Then when I see you that next time all of the rules are thrown out the window. All my plans are unmade. For the next time I see you, you are in your boyfriend’s arms. Those arms that I can only wish one day I will fill. I feel myself falling deeper and deeper for you and not being able to stop. Not wanting to stop loving you. Your love has become so deep, so powerful. It drives me day by day. Even though we have only known each other for a short while. I feel as if I have known you all my life. Soul mates if you will, and made for each other.
The next day I get to see you again. And this time there is no boyfriend there. Just you and I there on the verge or kissing and stopping before something bad happened. Something that I know would ruin our friendship. I know that you have a boyfriend. I have known all along. But to me… he wasn’t real. So I fell and fell hard. And I enjoyed falling. Falling into your arms, falling into your eyes, falling into your lips, falling into your heart to stay.
A simple kiss, a choice that was made. I know you can’t. Know you won’t. Loving you for not allowing it. This game that we play is the most dangerous game out there. The game of love, and the choices around it. I want to play this game with you. Play this game forever. To love you. As I wish you would love me.
That night I lay on my bed thinking about everything that happened that day. Our conversations full of laughter, jokes, and the ever present sarcasm that fills our day with fun. And again I drift off to sleep with you on my mind. And as I sleep sweet tears fall down my face as I fall to sleep. Tears of confusion, tears of joy, and a tear of love.